Dear Abuser

DEAR ABUSER

I loved you more than my very own life!

All those years I made you my wife.

I would have gladly died for you.

There’s nothing that I wouldn’t do.

So why did life turn out so cruel?

Why did passions turn so cool?

How can soul mates be torn apart,

When they needed each other, right from the start?

Where on Earth did it all go wrong?

Was it that scratch on our favourite song?

When did our tracks become so separate?

What was it that made us both act so desperate?

How did the venom of contempt seep in?

Destructive, and angry, and bitter like Gin.

How does pure love become so polluted?

How does affection become so diluted?

Maybe it was all just a silly illusion.

A self assured lie or even delusion.

But something tells me we were right to part.

Cupid took back the arrow, the blunted dart.

But it wasn’t for my lack of want or desire.

And I hate how you made me feel like a liar!

Now I miss the way you held me too tight.

I'd give my all for just one more night!

Without you my heart is in total pieces.

Slowly but surely the pain releases.

I’m left with a void in my lonely existence.

Even miss things like your bossy insistence!

When I said I would Love you forever its true.

I meant it and will always endeavour to do.

I gave you my heart which was pure and whole.

In return you callously crushed my soul.

Somehow you killed me but I never died.

Almost drowned in the tears that I’ve cried!

Now I’m an empty, fragile shell.

Living in torment and heartbreak hell!

Time has passed but I’m broken in pain.

Wondering now, was it some sort of game?

You tried your upmost to ruin my life.

If only you actually picked up that knife!

Never mind, you let me go

Now I’m killing myself and I want you to know!

So I hope you sleep well tucked up in your bed,

Safe in the knowledge that I am dead!

©️ Gemma Tansey 2022